I cannot believe it is now July of 2020. Some days drag on while others go by so fast I wonder if they even existed.
People are calling it a list year. I'm calling it a year of healing for me.
In therapy with my counsellor I have started EMDR and I find it works well. If you want to know what it is I suggest looking it up. I'm not very good at explaining it.
It helps me process various traumas without feeling panicked. And my counsellor is terrific at what he does using soothing voices and always going at my speed
Still, I have lots of nightmares about being raped. They wake me up with a start and I wonder where I am and where I have been.
I get up out of bed and grab a pop, pet the kitty, sometimes call a crisis line, play on my tablet and eventually fall asleep on the couch till morning.
I've had a lot of nightmares lately. I hope the next will work for them too. Therapy is hard work but it is worth it.
Here's hoping Covid19 will soon have a cure and nightmares will soon have an end. His bless all survivors of Vivid and all survivors of abuse.
